A Week to Be Free!

Finally, my school gives some holidays for his students (not all, only for the 10 and 11 grader). As you know that right now, the students from class 12 are facing the examination, they called it 'Ujian Sekolah'. Wish they luck then, thanks a lot for being a reason why we are having holiday right now :))
Actually, I don't have a lot of things to do on my holiday. May be no vacation, no having fun and no hanging out. My friends may be busy with their family trip. My boyfriend is climbing the mount for 4 days, and my cousin is busy with his exam. Well, the student council also busy with Science Art Skill (SAS) competition. Actually, I'm the coordinator for the secondary school Olympiad , so by that, I'll spend my time more on SAS for this holiday, and it's fine for me.
I have no doubt spending my holiday just for attending the meeting with some other committees, although I know that It will be much better if I go to some places and spend my holiday with a bunch of fun activities. But I need to think it over! I have a responsibility as the coordinator to make a plan, manage it and make sure that it will run well! I'm just trying to be a good leader and learning to decrease my ego :)
So, have a nice holiday for those who are having their holidays :) And Good Luck for the seniors! I know you can do it well ;)
Cheers!

Dreams, Future and Decision

Dreams and future, for me those words are really hard to define. I don't know why I can't start a day without thinking these things. For some reasons, it's crazy to think something too deep until you vomit coz you can't stand with the pressure. Yes, dreams and future have pressed me hardly.
I always afraid to face something worse in the future. I don't even want to take a step coz I don't want to take a risk. I'm not a risk taker! I'm brave, but I have a million reasons to think it over so I can minimize every risk that can happen in the future. I don't want to be so clumsy to decide something. Our decision now, will influence the future. Bad decision = A mess future. Decision is not a game, when you're failed, you have no replay button to be pressed.

"Quick decisions are unsafe decisions"
sophocles

“Be willing to make decisions. That's the most important quality in a good leader.”
General George S

I have to be so much careful on what I take for my future. I'm too labile to choose, but I'm smart enough to decide. Wish me luck for everything, Wish me luck for my future.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

Part of Me

Aw! Again, for a very long time, I didn't write anything on this blog! Well, need to give a big apology for that :(
Actually, I've already passed so many things. Something great and something bad. I don't know how I start, I just want you to know something sparkling happened in my life several months ago. May be it has to be such an old story. But, I guess, it's still good to be told to you guys!
Start from January, 15th - 18th 2012. I spent my time in Bogor for Youth Leadership Forum. Yep, I was invited to be a delegation at that forum. It was my first time I joined a forum to be honest, so at that time, I didn't really know what should I do. And I didn't think that it would be so much fascinating, coz I thought it was just a simple discussion with some other guys from other places in Indonesia. But I was totally wrong. It wasn't just a simple discussion, more than that, it was a training to increase our leadership skill through some seminars, games, team works, observations and etc. Also, I got so many friends from several provinces in Indonesia! Kinda miracle to be a part of The Pioneers (name for YLF 1st generation). I miss those memories with the other friends of the pioneers and I just want to gather with them again as soon as possible! Well, wish I could repeat the time when we were together in Bogor, laughed and did a shuffle dance! *haha!



After getting a new family in YLF, I never feel like all alone again. This feeling always remains me of not blaming myself again for every problem, coz there are so many people who are ready to stand by me, together facing the reality, and start helping me to sort it out!

Well, besides YLF, I also joined SGTS UI debating competition. With my new teammates : Yunita and Rizky, we won this competition finally! We got the 1st place for sure. Another team from my school got the 2nd place.



But, it wasn't only that, something that could make me more excited was.......

Happy New Year.. Spread Some Loves!

Sorry for saying this lately, haha. But 2012 has come, and I haven't made any resolution yet. Do I have to do this? To be honest, this is important, but the bad thing is, I always break the agreement in the resolution so not all  of my resolutions can be reached. I hate this habit, need to change my own character to be more consistent on the things that have been promised! Need to start this action, but kinda hard if I do this alone. Wish someone can bring me closer to a better change and never put me back in my bad habit. But Who Is He/She?  

I've spent my holiday for so many things. I've spent my holiday with my Aussie guy named Luke, and several of my best friends. Then right now I'm having a project to do with my team in Bahasa Lesson to make a film. Yeaa, just like a teenage film. After that I will have a gathering with the student council (but I'm not sure to join it or not, coz I have to finish my film project first), and the last I wish to join 'Lintas Alam' with scout organization in my holiday. I don't know why I want to do this, but It'll be so much fun if I walk closer to the nature :p mehehehehe. 

Last time I went to Cikajang, Garut with Luke, Audhi, Sheeva and Ibnu. I went there by Audhi's car and I thought that it wasn't a good decision to go there. I had went there before, and I felt bored to be honest. And I felt the same way just like before. I felt bored to be there and really didn't know what to do, where would we go in Cikajang, and Where should we park the car? The things I did there were only taking a picture and walking around. 

green tea 

I forget his name

sky sky sky!

me?

sheeva (retro style yeah!)

athoilah ibnu 

After getting bored in Cikajang, the next day we went to Bandung. It was really FUN! Just like usual, we went there by Audhi's car. We went to Bandung Electronic Center (BEC) first, to go to the eStore :) 

Then we went to Ciwalk, had a little shopping, and walked around and watched movies! Before that, we had to wait Audhi to pick Viera up from Cimahi. And we waited for almost 3 hours only for Audhi and Viera. Also, Sheeva needed to go to the hospital for a while to visit her boyfriend's mom there. So, only me, Faris, Ibnu and Luke for the rest. After 3 hours waiting, Audhi and Viera finally arrived, then directly we went to the cinema. There, we met back with Sheeva and her boyfriend. We gathered and watched Sherlock Holmes toghether :)

Luke and me

damned Espresso! damned Taste!

Welcome Vieraaaa (Girl with an eyeglasses on) 

the ticket to watch Sherlock Holmes

Faris, Ibnu, Me

can you see me?

now you can :)

me and my best friend, Sheeva :)

I arrived in Garut at 11.30 PM. Almost midnight. That was a really tiring day. But that was FUN!

Our Vacation hadn't stopped yet. The next day we went to Pameungpeuk (In the south of Garut) to visit Santolo Beach. It was really far away from the town of Garut. We spent almost 3 and a half hours to go there. In Santolo Beach, we played with the water. Yeaa, just like a children, we back to our childhood! Unfortunately, I didn't take any pictures there. So, yeaa.. you can't see me there :p 

Because I'm tired of typing, I think I have to stop telling you a story today. I need a rest, to save my energy so I can continue finishing my project. Wish me luck with this.. See yaa~ ♥

p.s: btw, I want you to see this video! I love a new boyband from Ireland named One Direction. I'm in love with Zayn Malik (He's a Moslem member :D ) and Harry Style  ♥♥ I love their voices, love the song, and love everything from them ♥

Yes, I'm SIX-TEENager!

21st December 2011, I will never ever forget this day! It was my 16 birthday! yes, I'm getting older and I hope I'll be someone better. So many things happened at that time. I couldn't imagine that day was so that fabulous! yes, I was happy!

Actually, I started my day by being a committee for PORTRAS 2011. Kinda annual sport competition in my school. Met up with the student council, and had a briefing. Some of them greeted me and congratulated me for my birthday. 

After the briefing, I met with Luke. My friend from Aussie :) He congratulated me for my birthday and gave me Australian Key Chains :D I love these. Quite simple but that was good! 

At first, the event ran well. But, there were some problems in it! I was the event organizer, so I had to quickly fix it. I didn't know, why I was so bad at that time. My mood became worse and I almost couldn't think logically to solve the problem . Yes I was in the worst mood and I almost cry. I decided to stay at base camp and secretly crying. 

My cellphone rang while I was crying, there was a message that told me that I had to go home quickly. I didn't know what happened at that time. I beg for a permission to Dwi, the head of student council, but he didn't allow me to go home! DAAAMMMN! Next, I decided to say it to Aldi, the head of PORTRAS 2011, and he said the same with Dwi, he said "NO!". I just wanted to cry. Then, It was better to took a pray in the mosque. I got my feeling better there.

I was so silent at that time until I had an evaluation after the event. After I gave the evaluation for portras, I beg for a permission to all committees, and the damned thing was they also said "NO" , they said I have to be professional. What the @$#$#$#$@ . I didn't know why they were so much annoying at that time!

I was crying in the middle of the evaluation. I couldn't stand with the situation that everyone seemed so annoying in my special day. But in the end of the evaluation, I was so shocked to see that Yunita brought a birthday cake for me. Yes! the student council made a surprise party for my 16 birthday. Again, I CRIED! 

I DO LOVE YOU GUYS! I'M GRATEFUL TO HAVE STUDENT COUNCIL AS MY FAMILY ♥

Then, after that special moment, I went back home. Then I saw Ka. Alde, Ka. Andrew, Reyhan, and My friends from Jakarta were in Garut, and they brought a cake and several gifts. They sang a birthday song to me then I started to cry again *ohplease! I got my 2nd surprise party :) I was sooo excited! A little bit shocked to see reyhan. Actually, He should be in Canada to finish his study, but he was here with me in Indonesia in my birthday. My cellphone wan in a low battery, and my camera was lent by my brother. So I didn't take any pictures in this special moment. They also gave me some birthday gifts. And yes, I love them so muuuccch! 

thanks a lot Ka. Alde and Ka.Andrew for the gifts

thanks a lot reyhan :)

Parisian gifts from Reyhan :) thanks again reyhan :)

Canadian Chocolate :) Thanks again again and again Reyhan :)

After getting so much excited for my 2nd surprise party, at 7pm Audhi called me and he told me that I have to go out. Then I went out and found fathul, audhi, leo, and yusron were there. Well, I didn't know what they actually wanted to do, but I understood when Fathul gave me a birthday gift. Yes, another gifts! I loved this moment! Kinda sweet!!!! We had a really nice conversation until 8pm. And that moment was one of my favorites! ♥

thanks a lot fathul for this cute gift ♥

Also I want to say thanks a lot for Ka Dicky and Inel :) They also gave me a gift  ♥  

thanks a lot ka dicky for the gift :) I love ur music box ;)

Ineeel my dearest sister, thanks a lot for the gift also :) I love ur gift so much ♥

Also thanks for everyone who had congratulated and prayed for me :)

I always love you guys ♥

and you have to know that you're totally awesome